Moederdag / Mother's Day

Our first Mother's day was wonderful. It was very special to celebrate this day for the first time as a mother with my own mom, Oma. The day started of a little grumpy for me; I really am not sleeping much. Dad was very forgiving though and made breakfast. Both Oma and I received gifts and cards. I even got two cards from Loki. It seems he has pretty good handwriting already! Loki's handwriting, interestingly enough, resembles both Nana's and Oma's handwriting. Wow, genetics shows up everywhere! We then took a stroll to the farmer's market, where Loki was able to process a full feed for the first time outside the home. Dad had booked a massage for me (using a gift certificate from a friend) and we wrapped up the day with some great sushi. All quite festive, I must say.

It is amazing to me that, a year ago, I was still longing to become a mother, not yet knowing I was pregnant. In fact, we had started our process to adopt a baby. Loki was, and still is, in so many ways a surprise and surprising. For many years, I was focused on becoming a parent, and did not want anything more than to hear the laughter and crying of a baby - our baby- in my life. It is a lot of what I hoped for and, sorry for the cliche, much better than that, sleepless nights or not. Weirdly enough, I do not feel that it took much to get used to being Loki's mom. Somehow, from the moment I saw him, I felt MAM (MOM) in every cell of my body. I knew this little guy belonged with us, in our family. Although nervous about his medical well-being, I have never felt very nervous about being his mother. I knew him and I know him. I love calming him when he cries, and I love cuddling up, feeling his warm head and cool cheeks against mine. My heart melts when I see his beautiful smile and when he clenches on to our shirts with his little hands. Loki is such a wonderful human being with a most gentle yet feisty character. He wants to be held when falling asleep and loves to be bounced and pat when eating. The little guy is entertained when we stare at him in awe! He is even cute when he screams his lungs out just because he needs to process the day, when he does not want to eat the bottle, or when he can't fall asleep.

Loki is beautiful; he is sweet; he is courageous. He is happy; he is strong; and he is a good communicator. He develops new skills in the blink of an eye and he matures visibly when we are looking at him. And yes, he can be a handful at times, and we are exhausted at the end of each day. Loki can be grumpy and sad; he wants to be held all the time; and he has a hard time sleeping during the day. But he is our wonderful happy, grumpy, smart, screaming, laughing super baby.

No matter how hard I try, words can never fully describe all the amazing feelings of love and awe I have for this little human being. He is who he is, and that is so incredibly perfect to me. I am so very, very proud to be Loki Sky's mammie.