Holding (2)

Of course I need to say something about holding my little guy for the first time. It was an unexpected event, which made it even more wonderful. Initially I was going to hold him yesterday, with one of Loki's primary nurses. She has tons of experience and despite the respirator, felt comfortable having me hold him for a little while. It takes some work as you can imagine, getting the little guy out of his incubator keeping all the tubes and wires in place. However, yesterday and today we had a different nurse. So, I figured it would not happen until our nurse was back in on Saturday. Luckily, I was wrong.

As I finished up pumping milk for Loki (I am months and months ahead of the game here, as he takes only 4cc's every three hours), nurse Bonnie asked if I wanted to hold him. I assumed she meant sitting next to the isolet and have my hands on him. Nope, she really meant HOLD him, yay!! I sat down in a rocking chair in Loki's room and my beautiful, tiny son was placed on my chest. That was amazing!!!! It felt so cozy, warm and snugly to have his bare skin against mine. He did really well, with only a little extra oxygen; he had very consistent saturation. Although I felt like it only lasted ten minutes, we actually sat together for almost an hour, just quiet, snuggling and hugging, his little hand gently moving on my chest. Wow, what a wonderful feeling! I know we can only do this once in a while, but I cannot wait till next time!