An unfortunate development

I had very mild symptoms of a cold from Sunday evening to Tuesday morning. Yesterday I felt OK, and was with Loki. Overnight, the mild symptoms returned. We spoke with Loki's nurse by phone this morning, and she was very clear that the policy is "cold or flu symptoms = no NICU," and is not flexible. Thus, neither Mom nor I will see Loki today, the day of his surgery.

Part of me felt that I should have made the decision on my own. After all, my symptoms are mild, and a person is contagious only early during a cold. But we must respect the policy; and the risk to Loki may be unlikely but the consequences would be great; and other babies could be put at risk as well. What if, for example, I now have a new, different cold, and am contagious again?

Needless to say, this is absolutely heart-wrenching. To imagine that Loki will not have seen his mom for at least three days, and me only one of those days, and then has surgery. But I don't see any other options here.

Update (10:30 AM): The surgery should begin between 1 to 3 PM. It should last "up to a few hours." I spoke with both Loki's nurse and a resident urologist who saw him, and they both said that Loki looks very content, napping and listening to Mom's recorded voice. She reads stories and sings songs in both English and Dutch. My favorite is On the Day You Were Born.